funny how this job thing works...

well, on the up side i make AMAZING money now.

on the down side i just know that some day i'm going to run face to face into Joe White or Mark while i'm working. that'll be... awkward... "hey. you used to be two of my best friends and i used to fuck one of you and now i'm tople-" wait. joe's 25 so he can get in, but mark isnt. awesome. that kindof fixed the tension. i dont care if joe comes in. Honestly, i still like joe. I'm really sorry about his sister getting all salty at me for thinking i like will when i dont though. (that's another story. anyway, he's just my friend. i told her that, and she didnt believe me. her own problem.) anyway. I still like joe. and mark too, even though i dont want to. there's this part of me that's still raging at them and then there's this other part that's like "aww. you'll always love them and you know it." to that part, i say "fuck you."

anyway. it's been a while. and the fact is, i'm sick of bleeding in bathtubs over people who never even wanted to care about me in the first place. and i'm sick of people thinking they're better than me because they work at a pizza joint and make a whopping 6 dollars an hour when, yea, I'm a stripper, but damn, i made 700 dollars last night and you made 40. if that.

I'm so happy now. between the job and the new boy, life is good. very good. aaaaaannnnddd... mom will be so proud of me this time: i've been friends with the new boy since BEFORE mark and i broke up. which is kosher. very. ok. i'm a giddy dork. and he's not my boyfriend, but i dont want one right now. concidering between zach and mark i'm probably marred for life, and i dont want someone else to have to deal with my paranoia over boys being asses.

told mom about the new job. she just said "oh, honey..." and then i explained it's a 25 and over black tie gentlemans club, and we dont do full nude, and plus, i'm an adult, and she cant stop me. and she still said "oh, honey..." so i told her how much i made in the past two days and she shut up. hee hee hee. i'm drunk on money and Hypnotica. which is expensive, but some guy bought it for me, so i shant complain.

My stage name... is Lily.