I wrote this earlier, in my personal journal. and while i'm not as upset now, thanks to a phone call from Erika saying that she loves me and happy thanksgiving, I believe it still has merit. Most of my friends are off at college. and i dont see them very often. hell, dom's right down the street, and i still dont see him often. in any case, dont take the following to be as bitter as it sounds, I was honestly hurt when i wrote it, but It dosent really matter, in the broad scheme of things, when you get down to it. I mean, if nothing else, they all know i'll be there if they ever need me, right? I just cant decide if i like only being invited when i make the plans. I almost want to plan saturday's bowling extravaganza and then not show up. (ok, that was a little bitter) anyway. I have three things to say before the following:

1) Adam, i'm not mad at you. I just never got the chance to talk to you again before you left.

2) i hope you guys had a great thanksgiving.

3) I mean what i say in the following paragraph about you guys being what i'm thankful for.

I am not trying to be dramatic. I'm just in a shitty mood because i was doubly stood up today, and then no one else bothered to invite me to the adter-feast get together at dom's house. I know it's probably "not like that." and I'm not mad, it just stings a little. and i know i shouldnt, but i feel completely forgotten or rejected right now, and i cant decide which is worse. I called Dom's house "just tell everyone i said happy thanksgiving." keep it short and simple, right? maybe they'll remember you. maybe they'll appreciate your effort to know that they're what you're thankful for...

maybe you're asking too much in wanting to be invited without making the plans.