i suck at life.

in one day i managed to get two joe's mad at me over shit that i dont even understand.

it sucks too, cause i like them both alot. joe-tool because he was fun to talk to, and a good guy. and joe-ghostbusters because he's cute and we had alot in common, or so i thought.

I dont get it.

it dosent matter anyway. mom's right. I'll never be in a real relationship. know why? because I SUCK AT LIFE. and no matter how nice and sweet i try to be. no matter how much i just "act like myself"... I still suck.

everyone wants someone to love them.

i want someone to love.

why is this so hard?