a knot of yearning.
(written on Friday, Jan. 30, 2004)

somewhere between helping her climb through the tunnel maze above chuck e cheese's and kissing her goodbye,

somewhere between tying her shoes and holding her hand

somewhere between letting him win at air hockey and giving him all my tickets for a hug,

somewhere between showing him how to play x-box and showing him how to zip his own jacket,

somewhere between the big smile and the bigger hugs,

somewhere between here and there...

I realised,

I want children of my own.